There was a time when I incessantly coaxed my boss to
relieve me early; liberating me an infinitesimal
trifle of my debilitatingly coercing schedule,
While today; every bone in my body irascibly itched to
step outside; at even the tiniest insinuation of bird
cry or flickering light…..
There was a time when I gritted my teeth an
indefatigable moment in the realms of snobbishly
pretentious office; insatiably wanting to nestle in
the lap of wholesome solitariness and far away from
the impudent hustle-bustle of the sickening corporate
crowd,
While today; I found the most spuriously lackadaisical
of reasons; to tirelessly converse with every stranger
that I encountered on the streets…..
There was a time when I profoundly felt like charring
every cranny of the lecherously asphyxiating office
into threadbare ash; uninhibitedly staring at
fathomless bits of azure sky without a soul to
interrupt my unassailably ebullient fantasy,
While today; I pleadingly looked at even the most
sordidly cloistered dustbins; to relentlessly talk to
me; share with me the experiences of their life….
There was a time when I was ready to pay any price on
this earth to be wholesomely relieved of polishing my
devilish boss’s shoes; feeling like audaciously
slapping every entity in the match-box conference room
whiling away its time in slang; smoke and wine,
While today; I unrelentingly envied flamboyant youth
euphorically darting towards work at the crack of
nine; the spirit of profuse accomplishment in their
bones; which had since long left mine….
There was a time when I had truculent nightmares of
approaching death very soon even in the most brilliant
of daylight; as I had to inevitably blend with the
dogmatic corporate world to pay the rent for my very
own soil,
While today; I attended every pulsating party without
even the slightest of invitation; fervently trying to
engage all; from the prince to the butler in my tales
of vibrant life; while they kicked my dithering
skeleton on the dusty pathways and out….
There was a time when I felt pathetically staggering
for fresh breath; amidst unruly crowds of politicians;
my tycoon compatriots; and my boss’s unreasonable
lambasting me for achieving the best; although it
meant digging countless feet beneath my grave,
While today; every element of my countenance was
disastrously suffocating in the interiors of my own
dwelling; with the society rejecting my quaintly
quavering voice like frigid nothingness; and without
even the most mercurial mission in my decaying hands…
There was a time when I vomited even the last morsel
of food in my stomach at the very mention of
travelling; dismally sick of putting a pompous smile
in front of the inhumanly tight lipped customer;
although I felt like spitting on his worthless
mercedes,
While today; I felt that the biggest achievement of my
life was in my insipidly laborious morning walk; as
that was the only opportunity I could salvage; to
drift my ailing form from my purposeless house….
There was a time when I obnoxiously detested people
who superfluously adorned their bodies with
meaningless jewelry; wasting their entire wealth on
baseless ostentation; when countless deprived just
needed two morsels of food to lead life,
While today; my greedy eyes uncontrollably sighted the
postman every sweltering afternoon; ardently waiting
for greetings; gifts; just anything to come my way;
enlightening my derogatorily deadened eyes; amidst my
lackluster activity of snapping flies…
There was a time when I ferociously jeered at extra
population and pertinently perpetuating cries; wanting
my very own free space to majestically lead the
chapter of vivacious life,
While today; I passionately longed for an unfathomable
clutter of voices round my ghoulish abode;
incorrigibly clung to the feet of every bystander who
passed my trajectory; even as my very own blood;
gruesomely abandoned me to die….
O! Yes; there was a time when I was euphorically
young; squandering whatever I wanted to; malevolently
complaining about dastardly office one in a while; at
the same time falling in immortal love; achieving even
the most parsimonious of dreams floating in the aisles
of unprecedented desire,
While today; I didn’t know which direction to tread
although the earth beneath me still reverberated with
ecstatic cheer; although the planet around me still
continued to blossom into triumphant newness; while I
perennially craved for those golden days once again;
as I had now RETIRED….
(c) (r) copyright-2004, by nikhil parekh. all rights reserved.



