Do you know how much I missed you; unrelentingly
fantasizing about you all day; and unsurpassable hours
even past the lonely winds of midnight?
Do you know how much I cared for you; incorrigibly
following you like a shadow; ensuring that even the
tiniest of enemy stayed boundless kilometers; away
from your heavenly stride?
Do you know how much I wept for you; those instants
when you were enshrouded by thunderbolts of
inexplicable pain; when devastating fever capsized
each ingredient of your crimson blood?
Do you know how much I reminisced your celestial
smiles; drowning myself profusely; in the mesmerizing
ocean of your melodiously tinkling laughter?
Do you know how much I revered you; considering you
the sole saint of my life; the sole philosophy that I
uttered every time I had a chance; to be born once
again?
Do you know how much I cherished your memories;
intransigently basking in the glory of those times
when you whispered in my ears; even as the entire
planet treacherously fought outside?
Do you know how much I was obsessively mad about you;
making you the only princess; taking complete control
over my mind; body and wandering soul?
Do you know how much I dreamt about you; perceiving
you in the most grandiloquent forms ever existing;
wholesomely oblivious to the manipulative vagaries of
the vindictive earth; fighting for breath?
Do you know how much I wanted you every moment;
insatiably craving for your tantalizing caress; to
erupt like a fireball of untamed compassion; well
beyond the realms of blue sky?
Do you know how much I prayed for you; relentlessly
asking the Creator to grant you even my quota of
eternal happiness; before I eventually took celestial
reprieve in your Godly feet?
Do you know how much I envied those flirtatiously
invidious people talking to you; clobbered myself to
almost a ghastly extinction; each time even when the
winds blowing away from you; tried to entice you?
Do you know how much I perennially longed to see your
face; the first thing when I woke up at the crack of
dawn; sleep like a king with its ravishing
titillation; all throughout the uncouthly perilous
night?
Do you know how much I liked you; irrefutably shirking
every opulently pleasurable in this world; just to
savor a single moment by your marvelously benign side
?
Do you know how much I praised you; indefatigably
erupting into a fountain of adoration for your
enamoring countenance; each time I heard your name
being called outside?
Do you know how much I fought with the diabolically
belligerent society; just to make them understand the
wonderfully stupendous artist fulminating in each of
your veins; the poignant enigma hidden magnificently
in your glorious voice?
Do you know how much I admired your majestic sound;
enlightening each arena of my despairing life with its
pungent cadence; like a slave liberating from his
satanic cage?
Do you know how much I was attracted towards you;
drifting like an untamed volcano in every direction
you swished; massacring my very entity from this
planet; even at the most inconspicuous of your command
?
Do you know how much I died without you; extinguishing
like a frigidly soggy matchstick into wisps of remote
oblivion; every time you left me to slither aimlessly
on my own?
Do you know how much I trembled without you;
pathetically devastated at every step I tread; sinking
infinite feet beneath my grave; as you disappeared
like a miraculous mirage from my sight?
And do you know how much I loved you; immortally
bonding with your everlasting Universe of vibrant
beats ever since my first cry of birth; even though
you kicked me nonchalantly away; like a speck of dust
from your sacrosanct side?
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