Without you; I was no doubt able to hold the bouquet
of redolently mesmerizing flowers in my palms;
capsizing them forcefully with my tiny fists,
But try as hard as I could; I miserably failed; every
time I probed to smell; even an inconspicuous iota of
their wonderfully enchanting and exotically tingling
essence….
Without you; I was no doubt able to uplift my
diminutively impoverished body from cold ground;
formidably ensuring the grip of my soles with loose
chunks of orphaned soil,
But try as hard as I could; I pathetically failed;
every time I attempted to walk; collapsing worse than
a pack of soggy cards to lick dust; even before I
could alight an infinitesimal bit of foot….
Without you; I was no doubt able to put food in the
interiors of my miserably slavering mouth; vehemently
pushing it from all sides,
But try as hard as I could; I indefatigably failed;
every time I endeavored to swallow; vomiting every
morsel with ignominious castigation out of my belly;
even before it could venture a lackadaisical trifle
down my famished throat…
Without you; I was no doubt able to witness the
passionately singing nightingale; using the most
contemporarily robotic contraptions to keep my eyes
wide open,
But try as hard as I could; I ludicrously failed;
every time I insatiably craved to hear; with all
rhapsody metamorphosing into dumb nothingness;
fathomless kilometers before it reached my ears….
Without you; I was no doubt able to sleep; inundating
my withering bloodstream; with an unsurpassable
battalion of profusely sedating drugs,
But try as hard as I could; I penuriously failed;
every time I maneuvered my mind to fantasize; with
each dream of mine transiting into nightmares more
diabolical than what hell could be; stabbing me to a
ghastly absolution….
Without you; I was no doubt able to march amidst
overwhelmingly bustling crowds; trudging my
insidiously lackluster countenance past them at snails
pace,
But try as hard as I could; I irrevocably failed;
every time I wanted to discerningly acknowledge; with
the planet outside seeming a devastatingly crippled
blur; eventually disappearing into the aisles of
obsolete nothingness….
Without you; I was no doubt able to witness glorious
sunlight shimmering on my dreary skin; as I lay curled
like an aimless serpent; waiting to be treacherously
squelched by all mankind,
But try as hard as I could; I immutably failed; every
time I desired to enjoy the sensuous warmth; shivering
in devastated submission; although it was now well
past mid-afternoon….
Without you; I was no doubt able to lackadaisically
breathe; with an unsurpassable battalion of
conventional equipment pricking each of my bleary
nerve; a hostile fleet of antiseptic needle finding
their way in; well beneath my ridiculously shriveled
veins,
But try as hard as I could; I embarrassingly failed;
every time I wanted to exuberantly soar; with the
brilliantly shimmering world outside; transforming for
me into a black wall; of despicably barbaric
worthlessness….
And without you O! Beloved; I was no doubt pulsating
with fragile heartbeats; taking fathomless gallons of
air in my hopelessly punctured lungs; enshrouded with
a boundless army of life support systems from all
sides,
But try as hard as I could; I irrefutably failed;
every time I wanted to love and live; embedding my
entire visage deeper and deeper beneath my gory grave;
with each unveiling instant of my artificially vibrant
life….
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